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I never thought that I will write something….because I don’t have talent for this… but it seems that never a person should say never… .and this would be one of the reasons for which I decided to write! Never say never! Follow your dreams and do want you want to do! This is a little story about me and what made me change my way of thinking!
I noticed that, generally, people want a lot of things…… and still they want to do very much...

It’s natural….but I looked around more carefully and I have realized that all of them want a lot of things, they have a lot of dreams but they limited themselves…saying:

 “aaaa….I want to do that thing but…I don’t have money or I don’t have time or anything elese…”, and honestly speaking, if I look better only a small percentage of people have those reasons for real and for the others is simply an excuse !

People close to me keep telling that I am not a mature person and they ask me when I am going to grow up J

The question is what really means to grow up and what this means for them? To grow up means to limit at what people believe that is normal? And in this case, do I really want to grow up?

10 -15 years ago I had 2 dreams:

1.      To make a skydive jump

2.      To climb Mont Blanc

Yes…I know ..most people would say: childish dreams ...

Now, at almost 30 years (28J )…this things should not be so important

I still remember an article from Knox Magazine ( a Romanian magazine about climbing and mountains). The article’s name was something like this: “On Mont Blanc smells like leek (this is a traditional vegetable in Romania)”…..yes…this was it!….after a long period of Communism a Romanian guy climbed Mont Blanc!

It happened during the period when I started to climb mountains here in Romania and to read about other mountains. My first reaction when I’ve seen this article was: “Wow! What a lucky guy! I would like to do that but I will never reach it! I don’t have experience…, I don’t have money, etc…No…I will never climb that mountain!”  Why I was thinking in that way? Maybe this was the thinking way learned from those around me? How do I know that I never get there??? I was limiting myself??
Yes…this is the truth …I was limiting myself! And also is true that I have reached my dream after 10 years and 2 attempts…..!in 2007 I’ve climbed Mont Blanc… and this was the first dream achieved by me. Why I was thinking in that way? Why I was thinking that I will never reach my dreams? What would have happened if I had stopped dreaming and if I let the first thought and idea of the others to guide me? They were saying that it is too expensive and too dangerous, etc? I am a little confused: When I was immature? In the moment when I was convinced that I cannot reach my dreams and I was finding excuses like is dangerous or too expensive ….or now I am immature… when I am dreaming, I believe in my dreams  and I have the courage to believe that they will become real?

It happened the same with another dream of mine….when I was around 14 years old  I  wanted very much to make Parachute jump and to become a sky diver . Due to the fact that I was too little and it was in the next period to the Communist regime it was really impossible to me to do that! Also, it was really complicated after I’ve reached the legal age …so … time has passed and I stopped to dream at this….but…. after almost 15 years fate has given me the opportunity to do a jump from an perfectly good airplaneJ….and now, after doing this I am the happiest person aliveJ! And now I’ m wondering:

If I was thinking like a mature person (in someone perception ) and I was refusing to jump because I am 28 years old and at this age a normal person should think at another things not jumping from perfectly good airplanes I should really know what happiness really means? People! Please! ….Don‘t be limited! If you have reached an age…this doesn’t mean that you must renounce at your dreams! That you have to stop dreaming only to prove the others that you have grown up and that you are mature and normal person!

If your dreams don’t come true is only because you don’t really want that! because you don’t do everything that is possible to achieve them! ,,,, because you put false limits….; you will always find excuses…..but I am sure that you know that there are only excuses

I know that this seems though but this is the truth! Please think at what is the best choice for you! What you really want  and take in consideration that we have only one life and it is pity to arrive at “one age” when we will regret that we haven’t done this or that …or even that we haven’t try to do it!

Let’s be serious, let’s stop telling lies to ourselves and stop finding excuses for not achieving our dreams! If we really want to do something we can! It only depends on us!

Now, to be more convincing, I will show you how much brought me a dream that became reality …a dream that in one period of my life became only a stupid child memory… and because I am really lucky I have realized what I could lose due to a simple fact of renouncing to a child’s dream!

Yes…you will not believe … a child dream that became reality made me to feel better than ever and gave me the opportunity to try feelings that nothing else could offer me in 28 years.

Everything started with the first jump: You will ask yourselves how a jump can change your life and your way to be, your way of thinking!

How the first jump was and what feeling I had?

First jump – a tandem one!

1. Lack of patience….I have never been so eager…you can realize…I was expecting this for 15 years…

2. Fear? No…not at all….(maybe the forward was so big that I couldn’t feel the fear?)

First steps: you put the harness, the instructor explains you what you have to do, etc …but…I couldn’t give attention to anything…I was waiting the jump! THAT JUMP!

I am in the plane’s door and…suddenly I am on the ground telling everybody that I want to do it again that I want to be again, there!  in the clouds!

This was the first jump and the beginning of everything J(many thanks to my instructor that made me to love this sportJ )! A guess!… who was on the drop zone next weekend even that the weather was bad? J Yes…it is not so hard! the answer is : MEJ! It was raining but I was there, waiting… because never know…and this was a good choice because I have done the second jump and after that the third one! I am again on the ground: yes! Yes, now I really know this means to be alive, to dream and to let your dream become true!. yes…I am in loved….you will never believe but more than 2 hours I had a huge smile on my face…a smile that nothing and nobody could take me..., I was for the first time in my life really happy – I have realized what means that – this was the first feeling that I had never had before

I start the school because I want to take my license. I start the course again with a  tandem jump…

Here appears another feeling, I really don’t know if it is only one feeling or a combination of feelings

An overwhelming fear combined with a natural calm.

(Yes,,, I know,,, you will say that this can’t exist….you cannot be scared and calm in the same time…!I can understand you because this would have been my answer before feeling that: I am speaking about a very strong feeling but also a strange one…: I was very calm because I have already done this thing 3 times and everything was ok but..I was still afraid….very afraid….(but, even in this moment, I cannot understand why ,,,it was my 4^th tandem jump and I knew that it is very easy);

Hmmmmm…….yes….I was calm and in the same time I was very very scared…but the strongest feeling on this jump was when I’ve managed to get over it and after that followed: free fall, freedom, fly…yes I want this again and again…and again….:) !

Next one is my first AFF jump ( almost alone: during the free fall 2 instructors helps you to maintain the stabile position and after that…alone….). Yes….another new feeling!, happiness, fear, calm, emotions I really don’t know what I felt…

I put my parachute on me…,I am very agitated, I ask everybody what should I do (even that I know very well all the steps of the jump), I make a lot of exercises for finding the ripcord. …

I am nervous…yes! It is clear it is a feeling of agitation…or..no, no no! I am calm…or…no…I really don’t know what I am feeling! I am very calm because I have done this before and I know what means, also I have near me the best instructors from Romania (with more than 6500 jumps) but…still I am a little agitated…hmmm ….

I am doing the first steps to the plane…hmm…I want to cry but I don’t know why! I m afraid? I am nervous? or I just want to cry because one of my biggest dreams will become true? Because it is the first time when I am doing a jump with my own parachute?

Yes…again a combination of feelings and questions, now I see all my live…in front of my eyes….

I am afraid , I am nervous but in the same time I am the happiest person alive!

Helped by the instructors at 3000 meters I became very calm ;

All this feelings: agitation, fear and also all the questions have disappeared and all of them became another feeling:  reconciliation with myself…!

Now, you can see how many feelings in the same place..in such a short time!

I have jumped ! I am in free fall everything is ok, I am stable…I am so happy….happy happy…. happy,  but …. something goes wrong :I’m not very stabile anymore… but finally I open the parachute in stabile position and everything is ok now..but I m very disappointed L

I am again on the ground, and very disappointed because not everything went as I wanted..but in the same time I am satisfied ! again you can see…confusing feelings…J

And this was the way in which I have started to feel something that I have never felt before…not in this way, not with thin intensity…!

Now I’m really in love with the sky, with the jumps, with the fly…I love everything!

What would have happened if I had decided to grow up and stop having “childish dreams”? I should ever have been so happy? Is this the time when I have to renounce to my dreams only to demonstrate to the others that I have grown up? Do I want this??

I don’t think so…; If renouncing to something that makes you happy and makes you smile means to be mature…no…thank you very much but I prefer to remain a child…

To dream and to fight for making my dreams to become reality! This is what I want and what makes me happy! This is everything - to follow your dreams and to do what makes you feel fulfilled!

If a family makes you fulfilled….do it! If you want a lot of children start working on this! If you want a caravan instead of a house…this doesn’t means that you are a looser…follow your dream…make what you want! Fight for your dreams…live your live as you believe and feel! This means to be really alive: to be able to smile anytime and to be satisfied of what you have done, what you are doing and what you dream to do!